My Dearest,
Today started just as any other day, waking up, praying and thanking God for sleep, the ability to function, a clean water shower, and the ability to stand up on my two feet and dress myself. I tried to keep my mind on God and pray for clean hands and a pure heart that God can love. I walked to work and thanked God for the ability to walk and the crisp, cold temperatures. I love wearing your cardigan and gloves in the Winter. My finger tips are still frozen by the time I get to my building.
Honey, was I ok when you were with me?
Suddenly, I want to swim the ocean to see and be with you again.1
As you know, I've been extremely preoccupied with the business of life and trying to learn to live responsibly on my own; I haven't really cried. I saw RT today in passing and asked how we were and I suddenly felt the tearing. You liked him and visited with him a lot in the library, waiting on me to get off work. He was so kind and apologetic, but I kept reassuring him that God is good to me by providing a roof over my head and my job. I thanked God for our precious Church, which let me stay in the church house until I could find a place, and allowed me to leave anything I wanted so they could sell it for me.
Honey, was I ok when you were with me?
Did I treat you well as your help-meet, partner, wife?
Were you able to find some laughter and escape from the stresses?
Dearest, I think you left me a bit too soon and now eight months later, I'm hurting.
Maybe God is allowing me a bit of emotional time. I really want to cry, but can't. My eyes are a bit teary, but my goodness, I am hurting. Is this the awful pain listed by statistics?
O Lord Jesus, Thy Will Alone be done. Not mine.
Please, Lord, help me accept Your Will Alone.
I'll wait until Jesus Calls. 2
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